Light Up The Sky

Have you ever had that feeling where you know you need to keep moving forward, but you are unsure as to where forward is? I feel like that's where I'm at right now. Actually, I feel like I have been moving towards this point for a while now. I've had it as a goal to go to grad school for some time now and today I met with an admissions advisor at the U of MN for this. Long story short, the fact that my GPA is less that stellar, when combined with the fact I have extensive research experience has put me as a definite maybe for grad school in general. So at this point I'm not sure what to do.

It is at this time when nothing makes sensethat I find the song Light Up The Sky by The Afters so encouraging.

When I'm feeling all alone and so far to go

The signs are nowhere on this road guiding me home

When the night is closing in - is falling on my skin

Oh God will you com close?

When stars are hiding in the clouds, I don't feel them shining

When I can't see beyond my doubt the silver lining

When I've almost reached the end, like a flood you're rushing in -

Your love is rushing in!

This is basically how I feel right now, and precisely what I need to hear. One trap I fall into easily is the notion that I can do anything my own way. I just forge ahead because something looks right to me. Not that this is new, every bit of popular culture seems to seems to scream this message.

The heart of the song lies in the chorus:

You light, light, light up the sky

You light up the sky to show me you are with me

And I, I, I cant deny

No, I can't deny that you are with me

You've open my eyes

So I can see you all around me

You light, light, light up the sky

You light up the sky to show me

You are with me

It is such an amazing thought to know that we never have to walk through anything alone. I know that while I feel like I'm following a compass with no needle, it'll work out. I know for a fact that my life so far is proof of this and I know I will not be deserted when there's still so much ahead of me. So, just a thought to keep in mind is that no matter how dark the night may seem, the dawn is coming.